I'm at a bizarre place in my life. I went from being a stay-at-home mom for almost 21 years to not being one. I'm in the midst of closing the home business I ran for years, and I'm about to wipe out the savings I managed to scrape together over the past 3 years to save my house, which has been sorely neglected. It's awesome.
It's also terrifying.
My air conditioner is broken, and the boiler relay for one of the zones in my house is damaged. I do have the part to replace that one. My front door and side window have been broken for 4 years, allowing cold air to pour in. The snowblower needs to be serviced, and I basically have to redo everything in the house while living in it. All of this needs to happen after wiping out my savings to save said house.
Life is currently a mixed bag of working, young-adult/teen parenting, trying to cook and garden, being musical and artistic, and acting as I used to when I was home all the time. I used to cook a full dinner every single night. Now I'm lucky if I get a home-cooked meal on the table twice a week. I often have a sink (and sometimes a counter) full of dishes waiting for me to get around to cleaning them. I'm still trying to purge my house of my past life (there is so much to go through) and get my shit together.
Sounds fun, right? (It's totally going to be fun.)
I'm excited for all of this. Still terrified, but I get to start over and learn how to be all the things I want to be. How many of us get to say that? I can still do all the cooking and gardening and whatnot, but in smaller chunks with realistic expectations that it will be slower and take longer than it used to. Everything works out eventually, even when you're in bizarre places in your life.
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